... I wish I knew.
I could enjoy life so much more if I could learn how to not worry.
When I was a kid, all I wanted to do was grow up. I wanted to be an adult and do adult things. I couldn't wait until I got older.
Well now I'm older and all of a sudden I have all these things to worry about. I have to find a job to take care of myself and pay my rent and cell phone bill. I have to find a job so I can buy food and wash my dishes and drive to the store.
And since I don't have a job, I have plenty of time to sit around and be worried. Worried about what will happen if I can't find a job, what I'll do next.
The funny thing is, I know I shouldn't be worried. Trust God, that's what I've preached for the past four years. God provides, God guides, He works out the little details.
So why can't I practice what I've preached? Why can't I really trust God to work out the details? Why is something I thought was so easy, something I did every day, suddenly so hard?
I know God has a plan. I just have to wait to see what that will be.
Wait, pray, trust... And try not to worry.
